What The Fuck Do I have to do?

These is what goes through my head whenever I get rejected and or Friend zoned.

What the fuck do I have to do? To make you mine.

What do you want from me? To get you to love me.

What am I missing? That is keeping you from me.

Why am I am only good enough to be your eunuch?

How can you ask of me for anything when you are not giving me anything in return?

Why do you make me hope only to take it away? 

I try, I try I try and I try and I still can't crack your code.

Why do you feel like I failed you?

Why can't I just move on?

Why does the thought of you torment me?

Why do I fear you'll meet someone better than me?

Why do I hate the thought about you being happy with someone else?

What is it why was I passed over for the promotion from friend to lover?

Why am I demonized for finding you sexually attractive like that is all I want from you?

WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO!

The Search For Her

"I haven't written a poem in a very long time. Poems are not really my thing I am more of a ranting shit talker but I need to get this out my chest to be able to move on."

I am looking for her. That true love that I dream about every night. So beyond a wet dream but sounds of something deeper and true.  In my mind she has no face but is formed of ideas. Ideas that are what I find attractive. I dream she is smart, caring, supportive, and loving as I would be for her. In the real world I fall for women such as she in my dreams. This makes me pursue but past pains make me cautious. Going by my own set rules of engagement. I am tired of reaching for the top of the tree for best fruit only to fall down and hurt myself and be found wanting. The mystery is always what do I need to be perfect for her. Is it too much to ask that she not be ghetto, mean, or distant. Is it too much to ask that I find someone who will support me emotionally and give me the love that I am powered by. 
The conflict is the question of how can I find balance in not being needy but also let her know I desire her. How can I see past the games? How can I pass the secret tests? Why can't I get something straight forward? Why does this burn in my chest like the fire of 7 ovens? Why am I jealous over someone who was never mine? Why must I be reminded that I am alone? Why can't I laugh this away like everything else? Is she out there or is she a dream? Till I can figure it out I will continue the search for her.

In a dream my love

Had this dream last night that This chick was attacking me because of an argument. So as she is trying to really harm me I easily pin her down but instead of being really pissed off my heart was hurting and I confessed that I was in love with her and I all i ever wanted was for her to love me too. so I am shouldn't I be kicking the crap out of her for the disrespect instead of coming off like a fucking white knight mangina. It was really weird. I mean tell me what you think but my study as a masculinist and listening to Tom Leykis tells me that most women now don't deserve or want a mussy type guy. I mean if i was a better looking guy my jerkiness would be a turn on. I say this because when I am the nice guy i get ignored but when i am criticizing women for their fuckedupness thats when I get thier attention. its fucking hard to fight my own programing that I should want to be abused just because a person has different genitals than me. MGTOW all the way!!!

Louie Bee's 2013 Predictions Rant

Louie Bee
1/2/13
Rantings Of Louie Bee

All the papers on Wednesday were all about what to expect for 2013 and what was going to be the hottest trends. I have even seen some post on facebook about the spiritual mass over the air update from the god source that will magically awaken the people to a new age of A-Queer-Ri-us. So what the fuck is the point of me standing outside telling people about the New World Order's agenda? I mean if there was going to be a human firmware update at the fucking stroke of midnite what the fuck was the point of me getting so damned angry at a group of powerful elite when god was just gonna flip the light switch in peoples heads. Well fuck it. If it happens cool but, don't hold your breath. Nothing comes to you without putting in effort.

These are my predictions for 2013:

1. Yeah eyes will open to the Bullshit of this world but only after the lies cant be held up anymore
2. Irrationality is going to grow stronger.
3. Natural Love for relatives will go away. People will need a real reason to care about extended family.
4. More parents killing their children and vice versa. More Ultra Violence.
5. The Bar will be continued to be lowered forget Honey Boo-Boo here comes Dahmer Jr.
6. The New Age will not bring about love but a focused definition of Hate.
7. War War and more war coming this fall to a hood near you.
8. The Economy will on its own take a huge shit as the illusion crashes.
9. It will be discovered that Aspartame mixed with Fluoride Causes Ultra Violence.
10. Infinite love and conscience is not only the wrong answer but just fucking stupid.
11. HAPPY RACE WAR EVERYONE WEEEEE

I may be wrong but I sure I am not because I am tired of this fucking illusion of society. Putting on the rosey lenses of love and caring is just some sissy fairy tale that will not motivate the change we need to fight for our freedom and happiness. 

Keep your eyes open, watch your six and prepare to fight harder that you even knew possible.